Fulfillment is Bound by Service

by Christopher Lovejoy on October 13, 2018

Can one ever realize the ultimate in fulfillment? To fulfill the true self ultimately or not to fulfill the true self ultimately, is this not the question to end all questions? What is ultimate fulfillment?

Hello, and thank you for paying us a visit today. My name is Ultimatus and my twin flame’s name is Ultimata. We are here to share our ideas and perspectives on all of these questions, and more, for your benefit and for the benefit of all those who seek answers to these questions.

We come to you from a dimension higher than yours, but not so high that we have seen fit to relinquish our identities and histories by passing through the gateway of infinity into the timeless realm of foreverness. We are still very much capable of understanding you on your own terms.

Let us start with this simple yet profound question: what is ultimate fulfillment?

From our point of view, fulfillment is a series of essential successive outcomes from one dimension to the next, but for our purposes here, let us speak to where you are now, in a density of experience that is by nature rough yet necessary for the Choice in 3D to be seen and made.

To serve or not to serve, this is not the Question, this is not the Choice. Furthermore, to serve the self or not to serve the self ~ again, this is not the Question, this is not the Choice. By the very nature of where you are now, you have no choice but to serve the self, whether you care to think you have a self or not. What, then, is the Question? What is the Choice, beyond which all choices can be seen and made?

What is the pivot in your density of experience around which the seeds of fulfillment can be sowed and eventually reaped with a view towards sowing and eventually reaping ever more seeds of fulfillment?

It is clear to us that you must serve the self, but in serving the self, you must also interact with the other. The other, in this instance, is any entity capable of agency with a volitional capacity for intentionality. In other words, when the other acts with intention, it does so freely.

As we said, you have no choice but to serve the self, but to what extent do you deem it necessary to serve the other? All of the time? Most of the time? Much of the time? Some of the time? Hardly ever? Whenever you feel like it? Whenever the mood strikes? When? And how often?

Why are these questions important to emphasize here and now? Because they point to two mutually exclusive evolutionary paths for the spirit: the path that serves mostly the self with love and wisdom and the path that serves the other with love and wisdom more than half the time.

Along both paths, the self is invariably, inevitably, inexorably served, but only along one of these paths does one serve the self by serving the other. The insight of those who have come before is that only one of these paths leads directly to completion in the realm of foreverness.

Which of these two evolutionary paths do you choose to follow, at least until such time that the Choice has found itself within you to be crystalized in your experience? This, my friend, is the Question; this, my friend, is the Choice, and it is up to each and every one of you to give an answer to this Question and to make the Choice in this lifetime or the next, or the next, or the next, whether you care to realize it or not.

Know that the question of your fulfillment cannot be addressed without an answer.

Let us pause here briefly for a respite.


Ultimatus, thank you for your insights. I have pondered them in depth, and in the pondering, I have found myself moving in many directions. I wonder about the nature of time, the nature of illusion, the octave of Creation, and the fulfillment of my time and place in the Creation.

You have an inkling that the final density in the octave, the density of completion for this octave, is one of timelessness, of foreverness, but even here, which is, paradoxically, nowhere and everywhere, the ultimate in fulfillment is still not yet complete. Do you follow me so far?

Yes, for beyond the density of completion for this octave arises yet another octave.

Yes, and by implication, an infinite series of octaves occupy the Creation as a whole, all of which arise in timelessness. Do you follow? Can you grasp the startling implications of what I am suggesting here?

Every event in Creation is occurring now from One point of view. From the point of view of one who occupies space and time, every event conceivable that could occur has already occurred; every event imaginable that might occur will occur somewhere from some point of view.


To put a finer point on it for the benefit of my readers: beyond the illusion of space/time in this density of experience, every event in consciousness is available to anyone conscious enough to experience it.


Which raises many interesting questions about the fulfillment of my time and place in the Creation.

Your time and place?

Ultimatus, I am here and now, with a particular point of view.

And so you are, but …

But … the temptation to hold fast to a point of view is strong.

And so it is, and so …

And so … I must confess, at this point in time, I feel stymied.

Perhaps the range and scope of what you are presently facing overwhelms you. Perhaps you are in the process of coming to terms with the extent of your presence, promise, and power. Perhaps your relationship with the one infinite Creator finds itself in need of a tune … up.

A tune … up. Ultimatus, your cosmic sense of humor is well taken, and it seems you know me so well. If I didn’t know any better, I would say that you and your twin flame are tuning into the vast experience of the one infinite Creator to make it quite plain to me what I already know.

I am you and you are me; that there is the golden key.

Thank you Ultimatus. I have much to ponder.


I am you and you are me, the ultimate meaning of which resounds: fulfillment is bound by service. Otherwise, fulfillment finds itself reduced to the satisfaction of a need or the gratification of a desire.

From one point of view, this service is strictly a service to the self; from another point of view, this service is a service to the other, which is also a service to self, at least indirectly, but what exactly is service? In other words, what does it mean to serve the self and/or the other?

Vibrationally speaking, serving the self and/or other with love/light manifests light/love. Where love/light is the power, the enabler, the energy giver in any interaction and/or transaction, light/love is the manifestation that arises as a result of light having been impressed with love.

Analogously, and experientially speaking, serving the self and/or other with teaching results in learning. Here, teaching and learning are to be viewed in the broadest terms possible. That is to say, merely to interact and/or transact with someone is to teach and/or learn something.

In parallel with this analogy, serving the other with healing results in wholing. Here, the healing and the wholing are to be viewed in the broadest terms possible. That is to say, merely to be in the presence of someone with a healing/wholing intention is to heal and/or whole something.

Summarily speaking, in the light of this vibrational and experiential understanding, taking or giving the energy of love is central to generating and absorbing or radiating an ever evolving, ascending light of wisdom or understanding, from which two paths of service become evident.

Those on a path in service mostly to the self absorb and retain the energy of this love for themselves, with the manifesting light also being absorbed and retained by the self for its own use, whereas those on a path in service to the other reserve and reflect the energy of this love for others more than half of the time, with the manifesting light being reserved and reflected back to others for their learning and/or wholing.

Where the first is one of absorption and retention in service to self, the second is one of reservation and reflection in service to other. Where life is a passionate game of love, desire, and wisdom for the first, life is a compassionate play of love, desire, and wisdom for the second.

In service to self, by way of love, desire, and wisdom for the self, passion is sought without much if any regard for compassion. In service to other, by way of love, desire, and wisdom for the other, compassion can only arise if passion is collected and directed in service to other.

Let us now proceed to illustrate these insights.


A new economy of being, of being of service, is arising in our midst. The phenomenon of rent-a-friend is calling attention to a variety of personal services that people can provide or perform for each other.

With the rise of Artificial Intelligence, it’s an economy that could well be the saving grace of humanity.

Asian Boss, a journalistic endeavor that assesses social, economic, political, and cultural trends, did a feature that followed one of its male journalists going through the process of renting a girlfriend.

Below is the video that captured this experience. In watching it, I invite you to put your attention on the girl who is being called to play the role of girlfriend to get a sense of her service orientation. Clearly, she is performing a service, both for herself and for the one with whom she is escorting, but is it a service that benefits mostly herself or is it a service that benefits the other more than half the time?

Did you get that she is in it for the money? Did you also get that she doesn’t care if her companion feels forlorn after the experience? But did you also get that her companion took delight in her company, while also learning a fair amount about himself from his interaction with her?

In serving herself, she served the other; in serving the other, she served herself.

In this light, here again is a snapshot of the two spiritual evolutionary paths:

sts: service to self
sto: service to other

sts = < 5% sto or > 95% sts
sto = > 51% sto and < 50% sts

sts absorbs and retains a love of self
sto reserves and reflects a love for the other

source: law of one, book 1, session 17

Higher intelligence is telling us in no uncertain terms that a human being cannot evolve and ascend spiritually without taking either one of these two paths. Both spiritual paths require conscious service, either to the self (by absorbing and retaining a love of self most of the time) or to the other (by sharing love with the other unconditionally more than half the time). Everyone alive is subject to the influence of both of these paths. In word and deed, by simply being, one is being of service to someone somewhere, but wherein lies the intent of being? Is it to fulfill oneself ultimately with a passionate, consummate love of self, at no expense to the other, in a competitive milieu, while jockeying for a better position, by being wise to the ways of the world? Or is it to fulfill oneself ultimately with a compassionate, unconditional love of the other, at no expense to the self, in a cooperative milieu, while enabling or allowing for a unified, harmonious expression, by being wise to the ways of the world?

Higher intelligence is telling us in no uncertain terms that the next level in spiritual evolution will bring each of these types together, grouping them separately and exclusively. With whom would you rather hang out? One who is full of love of self or one who is full of love for you?

If you’ve been paying attention, these questions should be ones that give you pause.

As a service to you, I will now give you a sense of direction for each of these paths.


It should be noted from the outset that competition can be friendly, just as cooperation can be deadly, but in the main, a competitive milieu is required to intensify and consolidate a love of self, even as a cooperative milieu is required to intensify and consolidate a love of the other.

Following a path of StS (Service to Self) is not as easy as one might think. It requires great dedication to self. First and foremost, it requires a deep, abiding love of self that views and treats everyone around it as serving this all-consuming love. Those dedicated to blazing a unique trail for themselves know all too well the advantages of incarnating on this planet into a wealthy family who place a premium on being sociable and attractive (and not just physically). With these advantages, they are well placed to get others to do their bidding without contravening free will.

In fourth density, the lovers of self are placed with their own kind so that they can intensify their love of self with ever greater wisdom; at first, the competition is fierce, but once the pecking order has been established, and they know well their place, they are then positioned to make the most and the best of what they already have to get even more of what they love and desire, gaining ever more wisdom about what it means to love the self truly, deeply, and fully; the greater their passion, the greater their success, as compassion becomes less and less relevant.

In fifth density, the lovers of self have a great deal of freedom. Ironically, as they become ever more compact in their wisdom, they become ever less inclined to see the virtue in others, feeling all the more inclined to hold their place and stay put, not unlike the Hikikomori of Japan, whose presence in Japan currently number in the hundreds of thousands. Unlike the Hikikomori, however, they are well placed, the more wise they become, to get those in fourth density to do their bidding and to sway those in third density towards StS to reinforce their love of self.

In sixth density, the lovers of self come to realize that their love of self is an evolutionary dead end. They can go no further in reinforcing their love of self; they can go no further in getting anyone, least of all those in fifth density, to do their bidding. In their growing realization, they are faced with a very painful choice: remain where they for as long as they can stand themselves or switch their polarity from StS to StO so that they can continue to evolve and ascend spiritually. In switching their polarity, they are painfully compelled to be of service to the other.

Now one might think, by contrast, that following a path of StO (Service to Other) is the easier option ~ easier to dedicate oneself to loving and serving the other more than half the time. Not so. Like the path of StS, StO requires great dedication, but with StO, a balance is required to love and serve both self and other unconditionally. I referenced this balance in my post, I Know Why We Are Here, where I spoke of what I call the tightrope of care. On a rope of StO, one loves and serves the self enough to love and serve the other; in serving the other, one serves the self.

Following a path of StO eventually brings a deep, abiding love of self that views and treats everyone unconditionally and compassionately as worthy and deserving of dignity, which is not an easy posture to master in a world where so many are (a) struggling to blaze a trail of StS, (b) struggling to stay the course with StO; or (c) struggling to polarize in one of these directions. Those dedicated to following a path of StO might spurn material wealth in favor of spiritual wealth or they might attract ever greater material wealth in a genuine bid to be of service to others.

In fourth density, the choice has been made and the reward is great: harmony ~ harmony within and harmony without ~ a harmony that can be taken for granted much if not most of the time. This lovely, harmonious milieu enables and allows those who inhabit it to intensify their love of self in service to the other. The resulting peace is palpable and the love of peace comes easy, which is not to say that these compassionate lovers never lose their sense of peace. They do. It’s just that they are very well supported by others to quickly recover their sense of peace.

In fifth density, these compassionate lovers have graduated to a place where they have a great deal of freedom to consider the many ways in which compassion can be imbued with wisdom. A comparison is worth noting here: if compassion without wisdom is folly, then wisdom without compassion is cold and calculating. In contrast to lovers of self in fifth density, compassionate lovers become ever more expansive in their wisdom in relation to compassion, becoming ever more inclined to move, to meet and greet others, to see the value and virtue in others.

In sixth density, wise compassionate lovers come to realize a transcendence of polarity by becoming wholly original in their generation of love and in their manifestation of light, having harmonized many of their thoughts, feelings, and conduct in concert with others of their kind. Unlike the lovers of self in sixth density, compassionately wise lovers are well placed as a social memory complex to continue their evolutionary path through the gateway of infinity to the final density, to pass the threshold into timelessness and foreverness, where all is One and One is all.

Service to Self? Service to Other? Or … Service to Neither? It’s a choice of cosmic proportions. Higher intelligence tells us in no uncertain terms what is required to be of service to the other, here and now, in this difficult transition to fourth density, as follows, and I paraphrase:

The best way to be of service to others is the constant attempt to seek to share and spread the love of the Creator as it is known to the self, while knowing the self with a capacity to open self to other selves without hesitation, radiating that which is the essence of heart and soul.

The best way for each to be of service to the other is unique to each; each must seek from within the intelligence of its own discernment as to the way it might best serve the other. This will be different for each seeker. There is no best. There is no generalization. Nothing is known.

Fulfillment is forever bound by service ~ here, there, and everywhere.

I will leave it to you to choose your path of service towards fulfillment.


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