How High Can We Go?

by Christopher Lovejoy on November 27, 2016

aware, in love, keeps us alive,
awake, alert to the false words
of those who are keen to accuse
with a shaming, surely so subtle,
as to leave us breathless inside a
shallow grave reserved for those
who remain naive to the icy cold
truth that a separate peace is the
only way we can ever realize fully
the truth of who we really, truly are
in this world, and beyond, forever

The linchpin of a life lived well could very well be my relationship with you.

And you.

And you.

And you.

Why this strange emphasis?

If you feel at all repulsed by what I just relayed here, then I would urge you to honor this impulse and turn away now; if, on the other hand, you feel the least bit intrigued by these strange words, then you will more than likely understand and appreciate what I am about to share …

On Being a Cosmic Sovereign

This is the title I wanted to use for this post, but I first wanted to introduce it with a qualification, to qualify those who are likely to understand and appreciate what I am about to share.

If royal sovereigns are merely earthly, earth-bound sovereigns of the global realm, embedded as they are in the comings and goings of third density life, then truly wise, loving, powerful sovereigns are cosmic sovereigns whose relationship with ordination is as stable and secure as the loving, trusting relationships they have with themselves, even as they serve to facilitate the transition from third to fourth density.

Imagine a facility to move mountains with subtle gestures activated by sacred intent.

Who among us can dare to care to presume to be a cosmic sovereign? What is the nature and meaning of cosmic sovereignty? When and where can one care and dare to be a cosmic sovereign? Why be a cosmic sovereign at all, and if this reasoning thereby proves adequate, even sufficient, how might one begin to approach, even realize, the status of being a cosmic sovereign, incarnationally, in human form?

Let us begin with a statement of intent, which I currently identify as my ticket to cosmic sovereignty. I speak these words with sacred intent, in the full realization that I am no where near to being as sovereign on a cosmic scale as I would like to be, and yet, the prospect of being so intrigues me to no end, in no small part because of my enduring interest in approaching a realization of the ultimate in fulfillment:

approach energetic mastery
through wholesale abstinence


in coming to terms with your fate,
realize the destiny of your desire

The “energetic mastery” part of this intention feels good (yes?), but … “wholesale abstinence”?

The term “abstinence” is defined, prosaically I might add, as “the fact or practice of restraining oneself from indulging in something, typically alcohol.” Although this definition does not do justice to the depth of richness of this term, let us nevertheless use it here, in more general, more comprehensive terms as “the fact or practice of wholesale restraint in relation to any propensity towards indulgence”.

In contemplating this definition, keep in mind that “wholesale” is synonymous with “extensive”, not just on a large scale, but on a cosmic scale. What this implies is that abstinence, if it is to be wholesale in the manner intended here, goes beyond mere creaturely restraint. Does this mean that to be wholly abstaining one can never again indulge anyone, can never again indulge in anything?

No …, and no …, and thankfully so.

I would emphasize here that wholesale abstinence can be construed as gradual and temporary, as a process and a measure by which to learn and grow, explore and create, evolve and express.

Adopt a Practice of Wholesale Abstinence

The mere fact that I would wish to restrain myself at all is quite intriguing, existentially speaking.

I must confess, at one time, I entertained the promise and possibilities of embracing a sybaritic lifestyle, and having that be my definition of realizing the ultimate in personal fulfillment, but as I have come to realize through experience (my own and others), a purely indulgent lifestyle leaves a lot to be desired. When one remains at the mercy of desire, how can one ever be truly wholly satisfied and fulfilled?

In any bid to be wise, loving, and powerful beyond belief, this notion of abstinence requires more than a little attention. In my document, Coming to Terms, whose first draft I completed on May 20, 2015, I had this to say about what I call “wholesale abstinence” …

With the practice of mindfulness serving as a modest basis for guiding behavior and conduct, we’re ready to take up the practice of wholesale abstinence with a view towards receiving all that is loved and desired. Keep this in mind as you take the plunge into abstinence: in contrast to indulgence, abstinence can serve as a blank canvas upon which to paint the big picture of your life, a blank slate upon which to write the best story of your life, and has three saving graces: (1) it can be a gradual process of discovery; (2) it can be a temporary measure designed to bring lasting positive change to you and your life; and (3) it can be cleansing to the core (an ego made pure).

In the wake of this passage, a couple of points are worthy of emphasis: (1) abstinence and indulgence rely on each other for obtaining mutual realization and appreciation; and (2) the three saving graces do not really get to the heart of why wholesale abstinence is so desirable.

Let me address the significance of the second point to realize the relevance of the first point.

It is all well and good to say that wholesale abstinence can be a gradual process and a temporary measure, cleansing the ego of impurity to bring lasting positive change to you, your life, your lifestyle, and your experience of reality on earthly terms from a cosmic perspective.

But what cause could be so important to make wholesale abstinence a desirable proposition?

In this revised excerpt from Coming to Terms, I follow the lead of Spinoza’s genius (which I view as coming close to ranking with the likes of Plato and Aristotle, Kant and Rand, Newton and Einstein) to clarify and elaborate on my understanding of what I call “the ultimate choice”.

In a nutshell, the cause that makes wholesale abstinence such a plausible, desirable proposition is this: the opportunity and the privilege to be at choice in every encounter, with every experience, you have ever had, are presently having, or will ever have; this is the ultimate choice. In this excerpt, I made an attempt to elucidate the mechanics of being at cause for exercising the ultimate choice.

In exercising the ultimate choice, one cannot but help press the interplay between abstinence and indulgence into service, either to oneself, exclusively, or to others, genuinely and generously.

Spinoza expresses simply and eloquently, with astonishing precision, and in terms easily understood, what this involves and requires of those who appreciate what it means to exercise the ultimate choice with reference to the everpresent dynamic between abstinence and indulgence:

the more clearly you understand
yourself and your emotions,
the more you become a lover of what is

~ Spinoza (who was, in my estimation, many centuries ahead of his time)

If indulgence serves to cloud understanding, then abstinence serves to clear up misunderstanding.

Here, I refer not to creaturely indulgence (although this type of indulgence is certainly involved), but to a righteous indulgence that is polluted by a toxic sense of entitlement, expressible and expressed by way of speaking, behaving, and acting with and from and through a righteous fervor.

I was going to say “a religious fervor”, but as you may well know by now, we would also do well to include “an ideological fervor”, along with “a religious fervor”, under the rubric of “a righteous fervor”.

Are We, Ultimately, By Choice, Fallen Angels in a Fallen World?

Recently, I have begun entertaining and experimenting with the rather radical notion that we are, all of us, to one degree or another, fallen angels in a fallen world, ultimately by choice as a consequence of forgetting, so as to relieve ourselves of knowing all there is to know.

There is much more here than meets the eye, so let me focus on one aspect of this radical supposition.

I suppose what I am saying here is this: if I am a fallen angel, then what might I say and do to restore my angelic nature, and do so here on earth, in a realm characterized by misery, depravity, and insanity?

What, if anything, might we say and do to restore our angelic nature?

In my experiments with this admittedly odd notion, I have begun putting a brake on relating to others with and through that blight of character known as righteous indulgence, what with its toxic sense of entitlement polluting the more subtle, healthier expressions of righteousness.

In doing so, I have found it easier to tolerate subtle expostulations of righteous indulgence, even as I have grown more intolerant of more obvious ejaculations of righteous indulgence, but even here, as I remind myself of our angelic nature, I am serving myself in taking the edge off my own intolerance. Where this experiment leads me, I am not yet sure, but I remain hopeful that it will bear fruit.

By Your Fruit Shall We Know You (and Know You Well)

Metaphorically speaking of fruit as juicy and desirable, what sort of fruit might be found as a result of approaching, successfully and happily, energetic mastery through wholesale abstinence, and in so doing, coming to terms with fate to realize a juicy destiny of your choice?

In a word? Charisma.

I touched briefly on the topic of charisma, as an aside, in my post, The Ultimate Catalyst, and for ease of reference, I reproduce the essence of what I had to say about charismatic behavior here:

Aside: the skills for cultivating charismatic behavior are beyond the scope of this post. I would, however, recommend the following source for learning more about this under-rated subject: The Charisma Myth, by Olivia Fox Cabane. Hints: you need not be outgoing; you need not be attractive; you need not be someone you’re not; and you need not be a leader (or a follower); almost anyone can cultivate charisma with a balanced focus on presence (so that others can feel good about themselves), power (so that others can feel good about you through your body language), and warmth (so that others can feel good about your capacity to care). With charisma, you make it easy for people to say “I like you, I trust you, and I see that you can take the lead.” State of mind is key; it is wise to learn how to process and release discomfort.

Studies conducted on charisma show that the fruits of a biscended balance (going deeper and higher) are to be realized wholly and fully by cultivating the qualities of presence, power, and warmth.

In this captivating interview (incidentally, I would encourage you to respectfully note those moments of righteous indulgence), Ms. Cabane speaks charismatically to the “hows” of cultivation:

The upshot of this interview is that our energies can be mastered with charisma as we learn to be “at source” when exploring and expressing ourselves charismatically in relation to others.

The beautiful, powerful souls in this interview strive mightily to express perfectly, albeit compulsively, and in so doing, betray a certain leaning toward a Service to Self orientation that is both captivating to watch, yet disconcerting to those of us who identify as Service to Other.

My own preference, being highly sensitive and mainly introverted in my nature, with respect to exercising and expressing charisma, is to emphasize a warmth of presence, speaking relatively slowly and warmly, while letting the power in my presentation speak for itself.

In concluding this post, I have this to say about the link between the exercise of charisma (in view of treating each other as fallen angels in a fallen world) and the exercise of ultimate choice, as I have conceived it in this post: ’tis a fascinating nexus for further exploration.

This post has been filed under Integration in the Ultimate Outline.

Note: my evolving outline on approaching a realization of the ultimate in personal fulfillment can be found here, accessible from the nav menu under the page “Be Here Now”.

Note: this ever growing perspective began here: Ultimate Perspective

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