My Life < 6 > My Story

by Christopher Lovejoy on July 11, 2020

what is the story of my life when I play the ultimate infinite game?
what is the life of my dreams when I play the ultimate infinite game?
what is the story of my dreams when I play the ultimate infinite game?

I feel blessed to be, to be here now, to be at rest in peace, to feel released and restored to peace, to be in touch with who I am, as I am, to feel relaxed and refreshed, ever ready and willing to follow the focus of my bliss as I go and grow with the flow into freedom and fulfillment.

I feel blessed to know that I have my own best interests at heart, to know that whatever I need will, eventually or spontaneously, be met with uncommon grace and ease, to know that my reflection will conspire on my behalf in ways and by means I could never have imagined.

I feel blessed to know and care about what I really need, blessed to know and care about what I truly desire, as I craft the story of my dreams, while growing and going and flowing, while caring and knowing enough to receive what I really need and to refresh what I truly desire.

I feel blessed to know that I can act on my deepest, highest interest, inspiration, intention, excitement, or passion every moment I can, to the best of my ability, going as deep or as high as I can go, until I can go no further, with absolutely no expectation of what the outcome should be.

I feel blessed to know, deep down and all around, my deepest, highest intention to realize the next best version of myself, to know and care enough not to confuse or conflate belief, desire, or expectation with my deepest, highest interest, inspiration, intention, excitement, or passion.

I feel so blessed to know and care enough not to compel anyone or anything to give me what I need or want, so blessed to know and care enough not to have anyone or anything be a certain way, so blessed to know and care enough not to lose sight of my deepest, highest intention.

As I foster my deepest, highest intention, I release any attachment to how and when, with just an open, receptive posture to whatever may be ~ and a giddy delight in response to synchronicities that continue to emerge or arise in the course of living and loving the story of my life.

And so, is it not prudent for each of us to ask ourselves: what do I know and care enough to manifest and maintain in my life, for my life, to release the story of my life, to restore the life of my dreams, to refresh the dream in my story, and/or to rejoice in my own fulfillment?

A Most Compelling Synchronicity

Dude! It sounds like you’re living in a dream!

A more or less lucid dream, my friend, for how else can I come alive to living and loving the dream?

Questions, questions, questions, so many questions!

My dearest friend, as a friendly foil in favor of forever knowing and caring, you know and care enough to keep it real and true, and so, you are more than welcome to ask as many questions as you can muster ~ and deliver. Just know that I will respond the best way I know how.

I would expect no less! First question: I fear, with all of these … flowery words, that you will end up sitting or standing on some mountaintop of your own making, and so I must wonder aloud about the wisdom of your intention and whether you care to share with us here and now.

Dear friend, I can sit or stand alone in the midst of nowhere, at peace with my past, as clear as crystal about my highest intention, and not be unduly troubled by any lack of significant, meaningful coincidences, even as I know all too well that they nearly always involve others.

So you do admit to having a role to play in allowing choreography to have its way with you.

This morning, not long after I wrote “these … flowery words,” as you call them, I was drawn to sitting and relaxing in a chair on a patio, where I encountered and experienced a most compelling synchronicity.

Please, do tell!

At the edge of a corner of a roof of a house nearby stood a chipmunk poised to take a leap, its tail flickering and its mouth filled with a prized object, the nature of which I could not discern. From behind, a common blackbird appeared and proceeded to poke the chipmunk in the ass.

Ouch!

My sentiment exactly.

Dude! What happened???

In a manner of speaking, the chipmunk held its ground.

And the blackbird?

It flew away after just one poke and prod.

Did you see yourself getting poked or did you see yourself doing the poking?

A very suggestive question, to be sure … truth be told, I saw myself getting poked.

Poked by an intelligence greater than your own?

Poked by an intelligence with a sense of humor as great as, if not greater than, my own, and so I stood up slowly and waved to the chipmunk in a slow, deliberate, exaggerated fashion, and for just a few moments, we held each other captive in a mutual gaze, whereupon the chipmunk broke the spell and sped off along my line of sight in the opposite direction.

What do you make of this synchronicity?

I take this event as unusual, and unique, at least to me, as I had never seen anything like it.

But what, if anything, does it mean?!

I admit, the symbolism in the imagery is so rich I hardly know where to begin.

Begin with a description then!

First, the flickering tail of the chipmunk catches my attention: look at me! look at me! And then, I turn my attention to the object in its mouth, so big by comparison that I wonder if it had bitten off more than it could chew! And then, I turn my attention to watching it stand poised on the edge of the roof high above the ground, making me wonder what it would do next.

Admittedly, a most compelling image!

And then, I see a blackbird suddenly appear mere moments later, seemingly out of nowhere, poking and prodding the chipmunk past the edge to a most certain death; it was almost more than I could bear!

Your aunt called you a chipmunk when you were a young lad.

This is true.

By affirming all of those blessings above, are you biting off more than you can chew?

I have no firm answer for you, my friend.

Certainly, if you remain true to these blessings, you might be required to take a leap of faith!

Aye, I might at that.

One that might have you give up your avatar for this life!

I shudder to think.

From the beak of a common blackbird, no less!

From one who feels not so fortunate or favored.

Embody and express the blessings, then, but do so with care!

I am duly cautioned. Thank you, my friend.

Dude, I also recall this blessing, from above, and I quote:

I feel blessed to know that I can act on my deepest, highest interest, inspiration, intention, excitement, or passion every moment I can, to the best of my ability, going as deep or as high as I can go, until I can go no further, with absolutely no expectation of what the outcome should be.

Not unlike the chipmunk on the edge; sounds like a confirmation.

I would say that your synchronicity is a blessing in and of itself!

Which begs the question: what is my deepest, highest intention?

The Very Best of Intentions

I must wonder if it might not be a mistake for me to pinpoint, and then presume to know, my deepest, highest intention. Having said this, I do recall having put forth a rather lofty intention for myself in a recent post that I wrote, and for ease of reference, I quote as follows:

I hereby allow myself to be whoever I need to be, and to do and have whatever it takes, to awaken feeling rested and refreshed every morning for the rest of my life until that turnkey moment at the age of 100 or beyond when I pass from this life in my sleep at peace with this life.

In an easy and relaxed manner, in a healthy and positive way, in its own perfect time and timing, and for the highest good of all, I shall embrace this intention as my anchor on the way to serendipity, already sensing the way to realization, and so I accept this or something better.

I accept this intention as the ultimate intention for my life, pinpointing the ultimate destination for my life, at least for now, at least until I locate “something better” in the course of living and loving the story of my life, but then, I must check myself: I’ve stated a general outcome for my life and a general pathway by which to reach it, but I realize now that intentions are not destinations.

What are they?

The distinction is subtle, but think of it this way: I am not pinpointing the ultimate destination for my life; I am merely pinpointing the ultimate intention for my life as a guiding star, not as a distant shore.

This would certainly neutralize “the road to hell is paved with good intentions” …

It would at that, clearing up any confusion between intentions and expectations.

How so?

I can anticipate an outcome without expecting that it show up in a certain way.

Yes, I can see that … like you said: “and so I accept this or something better.”

Intent is a force that drives draws me onward and upward to realize a particular outcome, but I remain fluid and flexible along the way about when and how this outcome might manifest at the end of my life.

Almost like having your cake and eating it, too.

Almost.

Also, synchronicities are signs that confirm you’re on the right track.

Yes, they are, and yes, they do.

So are we done, then?

Not quite. I still haven’t addressed the mechanics of manifestation.

The mechanics of manifestation? That sounds like cold comfort.

Perhaps, but maybe we can warm things up along the way. Consider …

the first hour of your day sets the tone and pace for the rest of your day

The golden hour?

Not a bad way to put it.

So what are your morning rituals for the golden hour?

Ah, I can see you’re not wasting any time getting to the point.

Dude, the last thing I wanna do is waste your precious time!

Aye, that I can see, and so, if near-perfect hours lead to near-perfect days, then …

… near-perfect days are bound to lead to near-perfect weeks …

… which are bound to lead to near-perfect months, years, even decades … and … by definition, to a near-perfect life that would have us approach a realization of the ultimate in personal fulfillment.

And by “perfect,” I take it you mean “complete.”

Complete without defect in soul or spirit; complete in having fulfilled my ultimate intention.

Dude, you’re setting the bar high.

Which is why I took my time sculpting my best intention.

So let’s circle back to my question about morning rituals.

Before I go there, let me share this juicy tidbit of wisdom:

beware the bane of hedonic adaptation and habituation

In plain English, please.

Certainly. The hedonic treadmill is the observed tendency of human beings to return quickly to a relatively stable level of contentment despite major events or changes in life, be they negative or positive. For example, as they make more money, buy more things, and gain more status, their desires and expectations rise in tandem, resulting in no appreciable gains in contentment.

So what I hear you saying is that the more they try to outrun the treadmill, the more miserable they become from (a) remaining fixed in their positions, from (b) not having gained very much by way of comparison, and from (c) not having gained much by way of appreciation.

Relatively fixed in their positions, yes, despite the illusion of advancement, which is not to say there’s anything wrong with making more money, buying more things, or gaining more status. The trick is to have all of these come from letting the beauty of what you love be what you do.

Let the beauty of what you love be what you do ~ Rumi

Sounds good in theory, but what about practice?

You could simply follow the intuition of your inner guidance, moment to moment, but you could also supplement this guidance by setting up a structure to observe a series of morning rituals during the golden hour, while remembering to let the beauty of what you love be what you do.

As you said, “the first hour of your day sets the tone and pace for the rest of your day.”

The golden key is to embrace the golden hour, to make it deliberate and magical …

… with a series of morning rituals.

And with a set of allowances that lend support to your ultimate intention.

Allowances such as …

Such as …


I allow myself to be true to my word
I allow myself to respond first, and then react, if at all
I allow myself to be happy ~ naturally

I allow myself to lead by example
I allow myself to keep it personal without taking it personally
I allow myself to succeed with abundance

I allow myself to accept and forgive, where necessary
I allow myself to love unconditionally, where appropriate
I allow myself to cultivate and calibrate the golden hour

I also noticed you compiled quite a list of morning rituals. Care to share?

Absolutely, my friend, but let’s not be too quick to forget the hedonic treadmill.

Of course.

Here’s a sample of morning rituals to mix and match from one day to the next:


breathwork
contemplation
creative endeavor
daily allowances
dedicated learning
emotional release
gratitude practice
guided meditation
harmonious movement
journal writing
loving kindness
mindfulness practice
morning stroll
spiritual guidance
time to forgive
visualization (creative)
visualization (idyllic)

Dedicated learning?

Lifelong learning dedicated to living life by design as well as living life by default.

Wait, as well as living life by default? That’s different.

In a life lived well, I’ve learned there’s as much room for “letting it be” as there is “making it so.”

I see. So it seems there’s a certain art to “letting it be,” then?

Of course. Let be, let go, let God ~ that sort of thing.

Would “go with the flow” and “follow your bliss” also qualify?

Absolutely. It’s vital that practitioners of the golden hour get a feel for the mutually reinforcing dynamic of “let it be” and “make it so” with cultivated, calibrated morning rituals. The key takeaway here is to conduct these AM rituals in alignment with the ultimate intention.

A Carefree Love and Lust for Life

So which morning rituals work best?

Whichever best support your ultimate intention at that time, for that day.

You make it sound so easy.

A fluid mentality is often better than a fixed mentality, and because my ultimate intention includes an accounting of the manner of my passing doesn’t mean I cannot enjoy a carefree love and lust for life with and from, in and through, the ever firm yet fertile realm of the senses.

as a pure, proud, perfect being, with a carefree love and lust for life,
I allow myself to awaken feeling rested and refreshed every morning
for the rest of my life until the moment I pass with peace in my sleep

Let the beauty of what you love, with or without a lust for life, be what you do?

My dear friend, this is such a great prompt. I am so glad I have you on my side. Where our morning rituals are concerned, the mechanics of manifestation would have us address issues that keep the golden hour coherent, for the sake of soul, and consistent, for the sake of spirit.

Unity and harmony, in other words.

Metaphysically, yes. Ethically, this would translate as dignity and integrity.

Give us some insight into these issues …

First, consider which morning ritual is most suitable for where you are, here and now. Is it relevant? If so, how relevant is it in relation to other rituals? How much time is required for it to be useful and/or helpful? Where in the hour must it be done to optimize how effective it is?

It all sounds so mechanical.

Not if you bring heart and soul to what you do, as and when you do it.

Let the beauty of what you love be what you do.

Even with the use of tech aids, or any other type of aid for that matter that might seem mechanical, bringing heart and soul to ritual is key to keeping the ritual warm and fresh, which further involves the issue of finding your balance between what is virtual and what is natural.

Give me an example.

In skimming this list of rituals …


breathwork
contemplation
creative endeavor
daily allowances
dedicated learning
emotional release
gratitude practice
guided meditation
harmonious movement
journal writing
loving kindness
mindfulness practice
morning stroll
spiritual guidance
time to forgive
visualization (creative)
visualization (idyllic)

… which one immediately calls out to you for attention?

I don’t see the ritual of sexual release.

No worries. Just add it to your list. Now ask yourself: knowing that sexual release is relevant to me now, how relevant is it in relation to other rituals of relevance? How much time does it require for it to be helpful? Where in the hours do I wish to place it? Does it require any aids?

Again, let the beauty of what you love be what you do.

While bearing in mind, and heart, the balance between virtual and natural.

I take it I don’t want to move too far away from what is natural.

Not if you wish to keep the heart of your soul intact.

That sounds like a whole other discussion in and of itself … with all this juicy wisdom, what, if anything, do you wish to monetize while finding your focus in flow on the way to freedom and fulfillment?

I appreciate the question, I really do, but I would take care not to put yourself inside a box of your own making. Start by crafting some of your best golden hours ever, but do it in view of knowing yourself; accepting yourself; and becoming the master of your own matrix in reality.

I trust you’ll have more to say on the matter of mastery in posts to come.

On the matter of mastery … with a touch and taste of mystery.

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Although I cannot make synchronicities happen with a snap of the fingers, I can create inner environments with rituals that remain attuned and aligned with my ultimate intention, so as to involve and engage myself wholly and fully in the world, alone or with others, in a spirit of play.

I play whatever game and role best suits my intention. I play it soulfully and I play it spiritually, in whatever ways and by whatever means bring me the most enjoyment, upliftment, and fulfillment ~ there is, after all, no point in suffering while playing the ultimate infinite game of life.

~ yours

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